Hey folks!
I know i've been completely MIA. Not going to promise that i'll be writing here more regularly, but for anyone still following me, i've started another blog to share my experience of challenging myself to lose 30 lbs before i turn 30.
If you're wondering if i can do it, you can follow along over here: www.30beforeimthirty.blogspot.com
Ciao for now!
-Roz
Showing posts with label weight. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight. Show all posts
Monday, May 2, 2011
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Really? My clothes are still tight?
Ok, so it's been about a month give or take since i started working out every weekday.
In my last post i mentioned that my clothes feel even tighter since i've been working out, and that hasn't changed.
This, my friends is VERY FRUSTRATING.
Tell me if this makes any sense:
In my last post i mentioned that my clothes feel even tighter since i've been working out, and that hasn't changed.
This, my friends is VERY FRUSTRATING.
Tell me if this makes any sense:
- I've been working out every weekday morning and taking yoga once a week (thanks Bonnie!)
- I haven't changed my diet (neither better nor worse)
- I've lost inches off my waist and hips (not many, but still, inches)
- I've lost one or 2 pounds
HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? how can i only have lost max 2 lbs this whole month?
Also, if my measurements are smaller, WHY DO MY PANTS FEEL TIGHTER?
seriously -is there something i'm missing here?
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
weight update
Since my last post on my weight, a few things have happened:
1) I had my annual physical appointment. I knew going in i had gained quite a bit of weight and told the nurse who took my measurements and vitals that i didn't want to know the number. He was kind, and didn't tell me. When my doctor came in to carry on with the rest of the appointment, we talked about a lot of things (when i might be having kids, how certain prescrptions are working for me etc. etc.).
When i thought we had finished all of our discussions, she pulled up a graph on her computer. It was a chart of my weight. The line had spiked from last year.
She turned around and said "i see you've put on some weight since your last visit".
"mmm hmmm" i answered
"are you concerend about this?" she asked.
"well.....are you?" i asked back
"well......" i could see she was searching for a way to be nice about it
"it's not a problem today, but if it continues like this, it could be a problem down the line. Weight starts to wear on your joints and other things. If it continues, you might need to worry about blood pressure and diabetes" she answered.
Then she continued "do you exercise?"
"no" i answered - i didn't even try to bluff it
Our discussion went on about why i think i've gained weight (i flat out told her that i'm lazy and i don't exercise and i eat out regularly).
She strongly encouraged me to exercise on a daily basis, which let's face it, is a polite way of saying "you're overweight"
So, of course, i know i need to lose weight. It was super hard hearing it from my doctor, but i think i needed that talk, that scare. I needed someone to look me in the eye and say "Roz. You need to lose weight. Now".
2) I've been working out every weekday. I didn't work out during my conference or the week after (i wasn't looking for excuses not to work out, but when you work 16 hour days for a week there is literally no time for a workout. The week following the conference i went to bed incredibly early every day because i could barely muster enough energy to dress myself in the morning).
It's going well. Don't get me wrong - i HATE exercising with a passion. Ho boy! i am ANGRY at the world for the first 10 minutes of my workout. You should see me (well, no you shouldn't - no one should, not even my dogs who - i'm not even kidding - i lock out of the room when i workout). My faced is scrunched, i scowl at the t.v., i yell at Jillian Michaels to SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP. But it's going well for a few reasons:
a) I WANT and i FEEL like eating healthier because i don't want to undo what i just struggled to do that morning. This, i would like to add, might be a first for me, because i am ALWAYS craving the junk food
b) i can feel myself getting stronger. I can't see a difference on my body, but i can do a whole whack of pushups (when i started i could do 2) and i can tell my shoulders are also gaining strength
Results seem to take forever to show for me (in fact it feels like some of my clothes are even tighter! ~sigh~) but everyone i've spoken to swears by the 30 day shred, so i'm sticking to it.
I was going to post my weight here as a way to keep me motivated, but i'm still not ok with that number and i think i'll save it for some "before and after" posts (let's hope there'll be some "after" posts...)
1) I had my annual physical appointment. I knew going in i had gained quite a bit of weight and told the nurse who took my measurements and vitals that i didn't want to know the number. He was kind, and didn't tell me. When my doctor came in to carry on with the rest of the appointment, we talked about a lot of things (when i might be having kids, how certain prescrptions are working for me etc. etc.).
When i thought we had finished all of our discussions, she pulled up a graph on her computer. It was a chart of my weight. The line had spiked from last year.
She turned around and said "i see you've put on some weight since your last visit".
"mmm hmmm" i answered
"are you concerend about this?" she asked.
"well.....are you?" i asked back
"well......" i could see she was searching for a way to be nice about it
"it's not a problem today, but if it continues like this, it could be a problem down the line. Weight starts to wear on your joints and other things. If it continues, you might need to worry about blood pressure and diabetes" she answered.
Then she continued "do you exercise?"
"no" i answered - i didn't even try to bluff it
Our discussion went on about why i think i've gained weight (i flat out told her that i'm lazy and i don't exercise and i eat out regularly).
She strongly encouraged me to exercise on a daily basis, which let's face it, is a polite way of saying "you're overweight"
So, of course, i know i need to lose weight. It was super hard hearing it from my doctor, but i think i needed that talk, that scare. I needed someone to look me in the eye and say "Roz. You need to lose weight. Now".
2) I've been working out every weekday. I didn't work out during my conference or the week after (i wasn't looking for excuses not to work out, but when you work 16 hour days for a week there is literally no time for a workout. The week following the conference i went to bed incredibly early every day because i could barely muster enough energy to dress myself in the morning).
It's going well. Don't get me wrong - i HATE exercising with a passion. Ho boy! i am ANGRY at the world for the first 10 minutes of my workout. You should see me (well, no you shouldn't - no one should, not even my dogs who - i'm not even kidding - i lock out of the room when i workout). My faced is scrunched, i scowl at the t.v., i yell at Jillian Michaels to SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP. But it's going well for a few reasons:
a) I WANT and i FEEL like eating healthier because i don't want to undo what i just struggled to do that morning. This, i would like to add, might be a first for me, because i am ALWAYS craving the junk food
b) i can feel myself getting stronger. I can't see a difference on my body, but i can do a whole whack of pushups (when i started i could do 2) and i can tell my shoulders are also gaining strength
Results seem to take forever to show for me (in fact it feels like some of my clothes are even tighter! ~sigh~) but everyone i've spoken to swears by the 30 day shred, so i'm sticking to it.
I was going to post my weight here as a way to keep me motivated, but i'm still not ok with that number and i think i'll save it for some "before and after" posts (let's hope there'll be some "after" posts...)
Monday, January 11, 2010
It's time
My goal for 2010 is to be proud of the way I look.
For the last year (2 years ?) I have looked at myself in the mirror and been less than thrilled with what I see.
Now I look at myself in pictures people take of me and I hate them all. It never used to be that way.
I’ve put on weight over the last few years and it’s really starting to show as “too much”.
I’m buying more and more clothes because the ones I currently have continue to look less and less attractive on me.
I’m constantly uncomfortable in jeans and always default to yoga pants if I’m at home.
I have always struggled with my weight and have tried countless diets including supervision with a registered dietician with no success.
I feel like I’m letting myself down by not enjoying who I am and how I look. I don’t want to regret my 20’s and 30’s because I’m overweight. I don’t want to ask everyone to delete the pictures they’ve taken of me.
It’s time to turn this around.
I’m lazy and I’m sure that will never change.
I haven’t decided how I’m going to take control of my weight, exactly, or when for that matter, but I am declaring to the universe that I realize it is time!
It’s definitely time.
For the last year (2 years ?) I have looked at myself in the mirror and been less than thrilled with what I see.
Now I look at myself in pictures people take of me and I hate them all. It never used to be that way.
I’ve put on weight over the last few years and it’s really starting to show as “too much”.
I’m buying more and more clothes because the ones I currently have continue to look less and less attractive on me.
I’m constantly uncomfortable in jeans and always default to yoga pants if I’m at home.
I have always struggled with my weight and have tried countless diets including supervision with a registered dietician with no success.
I feel like I’m letting myself down by not enjoying who I am and how I look. I don’t want to regret my 20’s and 30’s because I’m overweight. I don’t want to ask everyone to delete the pictures they’ve taken of me.
It’s time to turn this around.
I’m lazy and I’m sure that will never change.
I haven’t decided how I’m going to take control of my weight, exactly, or when for that matter, but I am declaring to the universe that I realize it is time!
It’s definitely time.
Friday, February 29, 2008
My thoughts on food and eating
Something dawned on me recently: I eat healthy.
I don’t know when I finally realized this since I’ve been “dieting” on and off for years. Trust me folks, I have tried almost every diet out there. Some with excellent results, others, not so much.
However, just recently, it hit me: I. Eat. Healthy.
Sure, I would love to be naturally “skinny” and slender. But I’m comfortable in my skin these days. I’m by no means over weight yet I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been.
I guess a lot of me being comfortable has to do with where I am in life. I’m happy. I’m confident. I have a good level of self-esteem. I know who I am. I’m proud of myself for where I am in life. And yes, I enjoy food.
Ya, my stomach isn’t flat – if I’m not wearing the right jeans, you can expect to see a muffin top under my shirt. But you know what? I like bagels. I like wine. I like beer. I like brie. I like cake on special occasions. I don’t eat these things every day by any means – which is actually a shame.
When I go grocery shopping I buy:
Fat free yogurt, broccoli, apples, bananas, granola, chicken breast, lettuce, cream for coffee, honey, whole wheat bread, whole wheat pasta, low fat cheese.
I never buy cookies, cakes, sweets, junk, chips, or deli meat.
I eat healthy and if my body isn’t “perfect” then I guess that’s just how I’m made.
I realize that I need to make more of an effort to exercise, but this is for my health, and not to look a certain way. I need to run to stay healthy, to keep my energy levels up, to keep my bones strong and to retain my muscle. I don’t need to run to lose my occasional muffin top although I suspect that eventually that will take care of itself too.
I don’t know when I finally realized this since I’ve been “dieting” on and off for years. Trust me folks, I have tried almost every diet out there. Some with excellent results, others, not so much.
However, just recently, it hit me: I. Eat. Healthy.
Sure, I would love to be naturally “skinny” and slender. But I’m comfortable in my skin these days. I’m by no means over weight yet I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been.
I guess a lot of me being comfortable has to do with where I am in life. I’m happy. I’m confident. I have a good level of self-esteem. I know who I am. I’m proud of myself for where I am in life. And yes, I enjoy food.
Ya, my stomach isn’t flat – if I’m not wearing the right jeans, you can expect to see a muffin top under my shirt. But you know what? I like bagels. I like wine. I like beer. I like brie. I like cake on special occasions. I don’t eat these things every day by any means – which is actually a shame.
When I go grocery shopping I buy:
Fat free yogurt, broccoli, apples, bananas, granola, chicken breast, lettuce, cream for coffee, honey, whole wheat bread, whole wheat pasta, low fat cheese.
I never buy cookies, cakes, sweets, junk, chips, or deli meat.
I eat healthy and if my body isn’t “perfect” then I guess that’s just how I’m made.
I realize that I need to make more of an effort to exercise, but this is for my health, and not to look a certain way. I need to run to stay healthy, to keep my energy levels up, to keep my bones strong and to retain my muscle. I don’t need to run to lose my occasional muffin top although I suspect that eventually that will take care of itself too.
I have surprised myself with this recent acceptance of my body. I honestly thought that I would have been killing myself trying to look a certain way for the wedding. I’m not, and I’m not going to. I’m happy and I know that I’m eating right with the occasional treat, and I’m enjoying life this way. With a muffin top.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Approaching life with a different perspective
A few things:
I'm back after 3 long weeks on the road for work. I wanted to write while i was on the road but i was just so. darn. busy! Damn you, work!!!
So updates are all i can offer you my friends...
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I've gained weight. It's not my fault i SWEAR. I was in Quebec City for a familiarization tour (if you have never been then get yourself on a familiarization tour!!) and in Quebec City, all they eat is c-u-i-s-i-n-e.
Only the finest ingredients go into the meals in Quebec City. I've never been to Paris, but i would imagine that it would be very similar.
Oh! the cheese, and the wine, and the tartar and more wine and more tartar. Every. Day!
Foie gras and champagne and sugar pies - oh my!
They certainly know how to eat in Quebec City. I'm sure they also know how to eat in moderation. Unfortunately, i do not.
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On the same thread as eating, i recently read an article in the Globe and Mail about how a poor diet is directly linked to cancer. CANCER people. You can read the article here and i urge you to read it and ~ahem~ digest it.
For some reason, it hit home for me. I've always wanted to weigh less, but only because of vanity. Now, according to this article, you should be as lean as possible. On top of that, it says people should cut back on red meat, alcohol (all kinds!), processed meat (and i'm sure most other processed foods), fast food and high sugar foods.
Ok then. I've started eating as many whole foods as i can. We'll see how long i can keep this up. Now i feel like i need to lose weight. I don't want to get cancer. I want to be as lean as i can.
Mat and i have also decided to stop eating processed meat (or avoid it whenever possible). This is going to be a big challenge for us as we make sandwiches - with deli meat - almost every work day. This week we're eating tuna. After that, i'm switching to salmon. I love salmon, but Mat...not so much. He can't get past the bones-thingy and i don't blame him. They are pretty gross all crunchy and stuff.
Now before you all go waving your finger at me for eating so much tuna because of the mercury risk thing - i've done my research. The benefits of eating tuna far out-weigh the risks of mercury posioning. Same goes for pregnant women (i should know as i work for Ob/Gyns, Nurses and Midwives).
A little more on the food subject and i'll move on. I'm committing myself to drinking water. Again, guys - HUGE. For some reason i can't drink plain water unless i've just been exercising. I've always had to add crystal light. I've changed this. I am trying as hard as i can to get away from fake sh*t that i put in my body. The best trick i've learned is to put sliced cucumbers in my water. It tastes like i'm eating cucumbers when i drink water...amazing!!
Here's a breakdown of my resolutions (for your reading pleasure of course!)
- No junk (except on the rarest of rare occasions)
- No crystal light
- No fast food
- More veggies and fruits
- No processed foods especially deli meat
- No alcohol on a "regular" night (ie: no wine at dinner unless a special occasion)
- Red meat only on rare occasions
- Only chicken and fish and much smaller portions
- Less honey in my morning coffee (i'm trying to train myself to enjoy things less sweet)
I think that's it. Oh, and i'll be continuing my gym routine at lunch time.
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Mat is the most wonderful person i know. Mat, i'm sorry that i'm not capable of writing more eloquently, but i just wanted you to know that i truly appreciate everything you do.
You see folks, while i was away working / vacationing (ok, in my defense it was 90% work), Mat held down the house and looked after the two doggies without one complaint (ok, i think he complained once that it was lonely all by himself, but i'm not counting that). He was always awake when i would call him late because i kept forgetting about the time difference. He decorated the house for Halloween and handed out candy all by himself because i told him it was important to me that our house participated even though i wasn't home. The house was spotless when i came home. He did all of my laundry, made sure the fridge was full of groceries, picked me up from the airport - with the doggies -- on a work night - well past bedtime. Had flowers waiting for me at home, planned our anniversary dinner, then still gets up extra early to walk the doggies and make me lunch before he leaves for work so that i can sleep in.
I'm sure there's a few things i'm forgetting, but i am so lucky and so grateful that Mat is in my life and that *soon* i'll be able to call him my husband. I hope he feels the same about me...
Just as an aside, Mat and i celebrated our 9 year anniversary on Monday :)
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I think that's all i have today. I do need to get some "work" done. I'm mentally drained, but hoping my new whole foods diet will help boost my energy and brain power.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Hurtin'
Hi my lovelies,
I'm sorry for taking off and not saying anything.
I don't really have time for this post, but i miss you guys, so i thought i would just bang this out for now.
Lady x responded by basically saying "thanks for all your work on this, but there are still a lot of items we haven't received for the syllabus so we're going to hand it over to one of our locals so that we can easily go back and forth with her which wouldn't be fair to you." (That was not a direct quote from her, but i summed it up for you). Clearly she was not happy with my recommendation and wanted to do it her way (who knows what the rest of the committee thinks). I'm sure when i see the final product it will have all kinds of 'And's, 'In's and 'Of's . Oh well, it actually doesn't bother me as much as i would have thought. I'm actually pretty proud that i have a high standard and i won't have my name attached to just anything. I mean, what if she wanted me to misspell words just because she wanted them that way even though it's incorrect. idontthinkso.
So...i've been hitting the gym lately. Yay! It's about freaking time. I've been taking advantage of my lunch hour and it's been working out nicely. Although it means my lunch is a bit extended with the short travel time and shower time factored in, i make up for it by eating my lunch at my desk and not taking any other breaks (note: many people here are smokers and take several smoke breaks a day).
I'm taking group classes at the gym (like aerobics, step, weights etc. etc.) It changes every day which is great because i'm working everything (if i go everyday that is....) but MAN, it has not been easy. The first two days i was hurting BAD. My legs and arms are b-u-r-n-i-n-g!
On top of that, i suck with a capital S at coordination. This is a huge surprise to me as i play a ton of sports that require coordination AND i played the piano for 10 years which required that i could follow a beat. But for some reason when i'm trying to do the aerobics and step classes, i can't keep up with what the instructor is doing and i end up looking like an idiot. Where everyone is facing one direction, i end up facing the opposite and i end up looking at people when we shoud all be looking at each others backs....very embarrassing. I'm always totally off and i'm getting really really frustrated.
Well my dears, i'm sorry this is such a lame and quick post, but i have some deadlines hovering over my head that i need to attend to.
Please keep me in your thoughts when i'm at the gym - i need all the strength i can get!
p.s. i need a new gym bag - something cool and roomy and with lots of compartments. Anyone have advice on ones they love?
I'm sorry for taking off and not saying anything.
I don't really have time for this post, but i miss you guys, so i thought i would just bang this out for now.
Lady x responded by basically saying "thanks for all your work on this, but there are still a lot of items we haven't received for the syllabus so we're going to hand it over to one of our locals so that we can easily go back and forth with her which wouldn't be fair to you." (That was not a direct quote from her, but i summed it up for you). Clearly she was not happy with my recommendation and wanted to do it her way (who knows what the rest of the committee thinks). I'm sure when i see the final product it will have all kinds of 'And's, 'In's and 'Of's . Oh well, it actually doesn't bother me as much as i would have thought. I'm actually pretty proud that i have a high standard and i won't have my name attached to just anything. I mean, what if she wanted me to misspell words just because she wanted them that way even though it's incorrect. idontthinkso.
So...i've been hitting the gym lately. Yay! It's about freaking time. I've been taking advantage of my lunch hour and it's been working out nicely. Although it means my lunch is a bit extended with the short travel time and shower time factored in, i make up for it by eating my lunch at my desk and not taking any other breaks (note: many people here are smokers and take several smoke breaks a day).
I'm taking group classes at the gym (like aerobics, step, weights etc. etc.) It changes every day which is great because i'm working everything (if i go everyday that is....) but MAN, it has not been easy. The first two days i was hurting BAD. My legs and arms are b-u-r-n-i-n-g!
On top of that, i suck with a capital S at coordination. This is a huge surprise to me as i play a ton of sports that require coordination AND i played the piano for 10 years which required that i could follow a beat. But for some reason when i'm trying to do the aerobics and step classes, i can't keep up with what the instructor is doing and i end up looking like an idiot. Where everyone is facing one direction, i end up facing the opposite and i end up looking at people when we shoud all be looking at each others backs....very embarrassing. I'm always totally off and i'm getting really really frustrated.
Well my dears, i'm sorry this is such a lame and quick post, but i have some deadlines hovering over my head that i need to attend to.
Please keep me in your thoughts when i'm at the gym - i need all the strength i can get!
p.s. i need a new gym bag - something cool and roomy and with lots of compartments. Anyone have advice on ones they love?
Monday, August 27, 2007
WW so far
So it's been let's see...(counting on fingers) one, two, three, four, five....
Today is my sixth day on WW.
I'm sure you're all wondering how it's been.
Let me tell you, it's been a rough start.
Day one (Wednesday) was the day i signed up, so i didn't feel like exactly starting that day.
Day two (Thursday) was tough. I was sooooo hungry and kept telling myself i didn't need to count things like fat free mayo on my sandwich. I also tried to make this recipe and couldn't believe how bad it sucked! Do not make this. You will end up eating something that tastes like very un-chocolatey, floury, tough, stale Tim Bits. I don't care if they're only 1 point each. They are not worth even that. This recipe, on the other hand, is a-w-e-s-o-m-e :)
Day three (Friday) also tough. The dinner i chose to make took forever to cook and Mat who was being a good sport at waiting for the meal to come out of the oven finally got too hungry and ate hotdogs while i waited for the WW meal to finish cooking
Day four (Saturday) was better. I kept myself busy as much as i could and didn't exceed my daily point limit.
Day five (Sunday) Better again. Discovered these (so delicious and so convenient) and these (Hi, 6 cups = 2 points?? Deal!)
Day six (today) Decided it's time to "beef up" my sad little sandwiches with tons of cukes, tomatos and lettuce.
So all in all, i'm doing ok. Still hungry at times, and being at work makes things difficult because i can't run to the fridge to grab some veggies when i feel like it. But i find if i keep myself busy and not think about eating, i'm ok.
It's really weird how your mind works. When you know you can't have something you can't stop thinking about it. It's torture!
Haven't lost any weight yet, but i'm sure it's too early to tell. I'm used to the Bernstein's diet where you lost 10 lbs in 3 days lol.
New mantra: Keep on keepin' on....
Today is my sixth day on WW.
I'm sure you're all wondering how it's been.
Let me tell you, it's been a rough start.
Day one (Wednesday) was the day i signed up, so i didn't feel like exactly starting that day.
Day two (Thursday) was tough. I was sooooo hungry and kept telling myself i didn't need to count things like fat free mayo on my sandwich. I also tried to make this recipe and couldn't believe how bad it sucked! Do not make this. You will end up eating something that tastes like very un-chocolatey, floury, tough, stale Tim Bits. I don't care if they're only 1 point each. They are not worth even that. This recipe, on the other hand, is a-w-e-s-o-m-e :)
Day three (Friday) also tough. The dinner i chose to make took forever to cook and Mat who was being a good sport at waiting for the meal to come out of the oven finally got too hungry and ate hotdogs while i waited for the WW meal to finish cooking
Day four (Saturday) was better. I kept myself busy as much as i could and didn't exceed my daily point limit.
Day five (Sunday) Better again. Discovered these (so delicious and so convenient) and these (Hi, 6 cups = 2 points?? Deal!)
Day six (today) Decided it's time to "beef up" my sad little sandwiches with tons of cukes, tomatos and lettuce.
So all in all, i'm doing ok. Still hungry at times, and being at work makes things difficult because i can't run to the fridge to grab some veggies when i feel like it. But i find if i keep myself busy and not think about eating, i'm ok.
It's really weird how your mind works. When you know you can't have something you can't stop thinking about it. It's torture!
Haven't lost any weight yet, but i'm sure it's too early to tell. I'm used to the Bernstein's diet where you lost 10 lbs in 3 days lol.
New mantra: Keep on keepin' on....
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
THAT'S IT!
I am committing myself to losing weight.
I am tired of looking this way, and worrying about picking something to wear every morning because i'm afraid it's going to be too tight.
And here's the really shallow part: I'm tired of seeing people i know who weigh less than i do. I'm horrible, aren't i?? I should be happy for these people, but instead i'm jealous, and i want to be skinny too.
So i'm going to start with WW online because i feel it will give me the flexibility to choose what i want to eat. I know i'll be miserable if i can't have my coffee with cream and honey in the morning and i'm willing to sacrifice other things for it. I also want to be able to eat out on occasion and not sit there eating a lettuce with lemon juice for dressing while other people are eating regular meals. I have enough time to do WW, so i'm going to do it.
On top of this, i'm going to attend some cardio classes. I'm very bad at going to the gym and doing a routine, but i don't mind going to the gym and attending a one-hour class. So that's what i'm going to do.
Now, i need all of you to keep me honest and on track, OK???
Sarah: good idea about being buddies...how do we do this exactly?
Mat: you better put your tough skin on, because i think there's going to be many-a-day with cranky Roz...
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